Sometimes i have the sudden urge to blast myself out with any way possible, maybe by this way i don't have to feel any heartaches or stuffs. I've never once begged for anyone to accept my flaws or to live up with me. Sometimes it felt as if ppl around me put me into an empty zone, isolationism is scary. Sometimes i just wish others could hear what i had been communicating with myself in my mind, in one way or another, i hope they could just hear those words that im too afraid to say. Sometimes i just feel that sharp pain piercing through my heart, not because i can't let go, its because i didn't know someone i knew could change this drastic. You wish you could pour your heart out to someone, but when you look around in that crowd, is then when you realise no one would actually there to mind you. How's this feeling? I know i've friends around me that i could easily turn to and rant things out, but i have this feeling that im just being a fucking burden to them. No, im not pointing fingers at anyone, but that's just my gut feeling. I may be bitching so hard abt this and that, but here's the only place i wish to rant to. I just got to live with it.
Peace.